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Let's say our formalities and then our good-byes.

Sun May 31, 2009, 8:44 AM
I'm 15.

stay with me here, I have to vent.

lmao, every day seems filled of FML!s.
But, haha, I wouldn't have it any other way.

I think I've learned more here than from anywhere else.
It destructs your stability, rebuilds your endurance, throws you into a loop of self-discovery, punches you in the mouth with alienation, and then makes you deal with it much to the indifference of the teachers ("God, I'm so glad I don't teach regulars. It's like avoiding gunshots!"). Hahah, the cynicism, the experience, oh god, and the line between practicality and what-the-fuck-is-this-shit is often trampled on. I think my mind is blown by the unbelievable level of judgment and offensive behavior here.
idk the only thing that keeps you going here is your own solid belief in your own little self. Who you are, what you are, where you're going.

SO even though this place is hellpit, unlike Satan - dumbly contributing to his condemnation what with his flapping wings without realizing the parameters of his limits, this place is racked with peripeteia, crippled with anagnorisis.

actually, the above two paragraphs are probably false
there probably isn't anything stirring in the minds of 99% of the people here
hell, i couldn't care less what people said about that pregnant chick. haha, he fucking yelled, "HEY! PREGNANT GIRL!" across the cafetaria.
hell, what discovery is there here? what charity? you learn what you learn what you learn. and then there's this huge amount of cheating SO much cheating. OUR NUMBER TWO IS A CHEATER FUCKING GOD.
I refuse to believe this is just "preparing" you to "better adjust" to the system.

idk i like to believe that there's some altruism here. even if it's not really there, because it means that there's something here besides GPA and godforsaken motherfuckers (no, i don't want to see your fucking chest, you BITCH)
but i can deal if the only thing this school had was gpa. hale, i'm not one to complain.
maybe it's just me. everyone else with enough independence in their (daring!) 20 long study sessions in the library seems to be fazed, well, not at all


SO YO BBs (/people who got this far)
I have a favor to ask of y'all.
Any books to read? Any ones you absolutely adore?
Anything y'all want to sketch? Want to draw?
Any problems you want to vent to me with?
Anything you need to talk about? (haha from greek history to why pi stands for pi?)
(: Ok ok. You won't comment, but just remember that I'm thinking of you.
and that I'm stalling from checking my Renaissance test grade, dear god.

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:iconpyrinea:
LOL wow I I I immediately laughed that rubber joke
reminded me of my cynical British friend. and Arthur.

Have fun with Humanities /o/


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:iconhissymau:
mister stanton

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Gotta love Mrs. Darden.
:iconatlamillia:
Ah, school. >_>;; Thank goodness I'm on work quarter. Good luck, darling, intelligence and perceptiveness are not necessarily blessings for ignoring that sort of stuff.

I'm reading Anna Karenina and Doctor Zhivago (yes at the same time) you might like them since you like Les Mis so much. Although they're kind of depressing so watch out. XD Russian authors and all.

I want to see character doodles if you read either of them, roflll.
:icononehappystar:
D8 I don't get it, but I hope yer problems are fixed SOON. :>

BOOKS: I like books my Jerry Spinelli even if his books are made for children~
I want to draw .u.

D: vent..
hmm..

I don't like the fact my parents expect me to do everything for them because I know English! Since they are Korean and not very good at English, I have to translate a bunch of stuff for them.. Like making calls to insurance companies, helping with bills, etc. etc. and if I do it wrong they yell at meee! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO KNOW ALL THIS STUFF I AM IN THE 8TH GRADE ;___;

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There is nothing here :dummy:
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o.o; I hope everything improves, that sounds like quite the commotion for a single journal. XD;

My favorite book is quite possibly Fire Starter by Stephen King, a great read, not scary but very addictive. I'd also recommend Clan of the Cave Bear by Jean Auel. c:

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On my way to Wizards of the Coast... someday.
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:iconpyrinea:
First off
Oh, my dear, happy birthday. The fact that you just turned 15 sorta kills me but dear I hope you have the best day [and the best life, even though school is ...well, it's self-explanatory, what that word stands for] and and and that it may be, for the most part, wonderful and stress-free because we all deserves those days, especially you.

I hope you enjoy your life, and continue to stay awesome. ♥

I'm sorry that school is making your life a living hell. I feel guilty for saying that school is rather agonizing and frustrating when I don't really go through much. I guess having kids who constantly, constantly complain have begun to rub off of me. I'd say "Persevere!" but it's so hard to do so in an environment of lesser-educated or, rather, motivation-less kids. I dunno I guess you just have to keep in mind, keep yourself in check which is probably what you're doing already
but
yeah.

I wish I could share you some book titles. I dunno I love The Giving Tree and Green Eggs and Ham.
no really though I was getting into David Copperfield then I just withered away from it. School. Huh.
Much luck to you with the test grade ha ha. Hope you did well!


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Man, you totally go to a Catholic school. (AMIRITE? AMIRITE?! I'M RITE.)

I love you for being fifteen. I just finished my first year of college and if there was anything I could say to my fifteen-year-old self it would be this: the sucky parts of life are all relative. Even if your life was close to perfection and the worst you have to worry about is a broken fingernail, that day will suck the hardest because it's the worst you've ever experienced. So the blows are going to come one by one in whatever form, but they're going to hurt a little less every time. Not because you're growing numb. On the contrary, you'll be learning to feel more emotions than you ever have. You're learning to be strong.

DONE BEING SAPPY NOW, HAPPY GRADUATIONS.

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I will join these little schoolboys, they will wet themselves with blood!

Hah. Wet themselves.
:iconabitibi:
Happy Birthday! ;)

Yes, indeed, everything is sucky to some extent. but...

To accept such a fact makes you just as foolish as the rest of the world.

To feel put down by the achievments of others and to belittle your own is asinine and wrong.

To feel sad is to kill yourself inside.

To be angry, despite circumstances, is not going to make things better.

To succumb to the devolutionary and putrid effects of the hellhole is to become what you despise.

So, yes, GPA is a horrible concept, the competition is bad, rank two is undeserving, but be proud of yourself! Do not care what others achieve, what others do, but simply try your hardest, and what you achieve is most important.

Within every deep, dark cavern, there is a way out, a way to light, and a way to happiness. You simply must find it and prosper.

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"Beware lest you lose the substance by grasping at the shadow." ~Aesop
:iconepuka:
Happy birthday~!
And I think I understand what you mean with that school thing, unless I'm far more idiotic than I thought and can't really comprehend anything--anyway~!
Books as a mood lightener? Lord of the Flies by William Golding is absolutely amazing. My God~
And when you draw, I die a little inside. Of envy~! But I love it anyway~! <3

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